My oh my, things have cooled down on my end of the earth! By which I mean, I’ve been able to relax, reboot and breeeeeathe easy following a couple months of complete chaos. All good chaos, of course, but things were just a wee bit overwhelming; Yoga Teacher training, 3 tests to apply for grad school, getting accepted to grad school, driving cross country for 2 weeks and starting a new job. There were many a day that I felt I just might not come out alive. Just.too.much. NOT that I am complaining in the least! In fact, I thrive on, and enjoy being busy. However, I may have been in over my head for a spell, so now it feels good to sit back, rest, nap, spend time with my pup and ease my way through the next few weeks before school starts. I’ve really been trying to do the things that feel soooo good to do; the things that when you’re so busy, you’re thinking, ‘oh man, if I wasn’t doing THIS, I’d be doing THIS!’ So, I’ve been laying pretty low, kind of recouping, and doing things that I love, which for me, always entails spending time with my family, enjoying the view, getting outside, making homemade meals, and surrounding myself with as many animals as possible.
I also started a ‘garden’, which really means I put some plants in pots, and am crossing my fingers that they don’t die, get overwatered, undernourished or too much dog pee over the next few months.BUT! It was the first time I’ve ever had plants of my own, so that in itself is very exciting for me. It’s the little things, right!?
My sister, Holly, inspired me with her big wooden planter boxes that she has set up on her dock at the lake. She was showing me all of her cute little babes growing, and it seemed so peaceful and lovely to have a garden to spend time in, even if for only a few minutes a day. It all counts! Look how cute she is, admiring all her hard work…
Ain’t she just the cutest!? Going to her little lake retreat forces me to slow down, look out over Lake Washington, and remember that the world may be spinning, the country may be experiencing tragedies and there are a hundred things to accomplish from our to-do lists, YET, there’s no rush in the stir of the water, the fishies still ease their way from one point to another, and the moon shines so brightly and confidently over our sweet city. I won’t write down all the metaphors here, I’ll let you make your own. 😉
I am in the process of learning how to slow down, and most importantly, NOT FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT! Over the past couple of years, I have developed a syndrome, if you will, that tells me that if I am not being productive, working out, getting to the next milestone, visiting with someone, or testing the latest gluten free recipe, that I am not living up to my utmost potential. I LOVE having an agenda for myself, feeling disciplined and taking steps towards a better me, but balance is important, and feeling like I am spreading myself too thin is only going to make me feel drained. SO! I am ‘training’ myself to do what feels right, in the moment, and with no guilt associated with it. Do I have long term goals of being an obese house-ridden, isolated couch potato? No, I don’t. But for right now, taking things easy, being kind to myself, and being able to truly enjoy the slow pace feels just about right. If you ask me, that’s exactly how summer should begin. Whatever YOU are experiencing right now, don’t forget to stop for a minute, breathe it all in, and allow yourself at least ONE MINUTE to stop and smell the roses. I know, I’m as cliche as a hallmark card, but oh my gosh, those roses smell good. So much love to you ALL!!